Ballad of a Candle

I had waited in eternity

To let the spirit light me 

And it was lit in time instinctively

The wax of you held me

And I was burning out 

The more I burnt

The more you lost 

But yet not for a moment

you failed to hold me 

And at some point I thought

I would part

Rather than finish out 

But you refrained

from turning away  

from your noble  fate 

And left me with 

nay to do but burn 

myself to annihilation 

While I watched your formless 

form dance around me 

and as fate willed

I too contemplated 

in burning with utter rhapsody 

And so as the curtains fell  

And the ending vision ensued 

In the heart of every witness 

a spectacular vision was beheld  

Of the wick, the wax, the fire, the dance

In the ballad of a Candle       

Written for Friday  writings # 38 : To Burn

@ Poets and Storytellers United 

Forever

 If I had a heart as light as 

                 the lightest feather 

Would it fly in time to light

                 over there yonder

Away from the nitsy bitsy things

                 of  ego sorrow and error 

And wafting along the tunes

                  of songs to heart closer

Along with the some unsaid words

                   and  unheard whisper

That glowed from far 

                   and  now be found nearer 

My heart would reach

                  to all the love closer

And love would abide in me 

                    forever forever forever 

                

                  

    

                 

Footnote

 My heart is  likened to rain

 Seeking the tunes of love in the breeze 

To find a lost part unknown but for the pain

And still seeking in laughing crackling of the trees

 The sorrows that come my way

Are the violin strings that set the base 

My demeanor crazy and silly 

All along with the thoughts I forever chase 

I live my life with gratitude

Yet I seek for something more

I ain't sure I can find 

My beloved when I'm gone 

And this note you'll find 

Know that as serious as I was 

Also very much I was fickle in mind 

A moment a sorrow  caught my heart 

Despair writ all over the part 

Times like this that my poems dart 

Then I call upon the divine 

And for the time being am pacified 

I cànt wallow for long in sorrow 

I ain't the one to be of not in cheer for  morrow 

For so much and such I could take no more 

All this and still more to find 

And so I ask to be to self a bit more kind

So as loved ones meet and depart 

The sun ought to shine till the day depart 

My beloved live the generous life in your part 

Before the ages once again anew a start 

When the winter is due

How sorry I am

How can I tell you

The autumn leaves have to fall

When the winter is due

The visitors of the garden

Left in search for a different season

The winter is cold and frozen

Snow covered....fàllen leaves, petals strewn

Could it have been worse 

A stone placed on the heart of a rose

A poem desparate for want of words

Has turned into an agony of prose

A loner by the river

Listening to the tunes  

In the pebbles of the water

Searching for the meaning of the runes

The shores being washed again

With every tide of the earth

A respite for the pain 

With every sighing breath

How sorry I am 

How can I tell you 

The autumn leaves have to fall

When the winter is due

A judgement of thoughts

The thoughts my mind could think

the thoughts of someone wise 

with time the very thoughts would change 

and then the very thoughts myself despise 

In the realm of thoughts unknown

I thought of people on the unleash 

and now my thoughts find me there 

and the plight of thoughts the same it were 

The thoughts my mind could think......

Exclaimed l ..What! the souls calling ?

Laughed l....What, the whims of desire!

Mocked I .....What, the pangs of heart !

And now the thoughts of obligations, duties, the shame, the pride 

The thoughts my mind could think.....

And then there goes the thoughts of searching

Of things that ought to nothing

As longer the thoughts linger 

so deeper the pain within

The thoughts my mind could think...

For as the thought-wheel turns around

the strings of space that time  once wound 

Their pain would then be mine, me surround 

When my thoughts homeward bound 

 

The thoughts my mind could think.....

So in thoughts of life's search for merry

on life's path of time and destiny 

has had me thoughts as judged as I 

And judged by same will I be 

The thoughts my mind could think....

A dream called The Aurora Borealis

May it that the heavens grace me to watch

Or may it  through beloved eyes 

Sure am I that  north abode to reach 

In lifetimes  next or this 

A sight of the spectacular Aurora Borealis

May a night sky  I see in the north

And the iced lake beneath 

Amongst the magical trees,

love filled heart and  howling winter breeze 

Whence shall watch the Aurora Borealis 

May a  faraway dream it seems 

But a dream nearer to my heart it is

As to the earth the magnificent sun shares

The sparks of their love in solar flares 

And I dream the Aurora Borealis 

To my Daughters and Sons

As grey strands appear and wrinkles set in

A prayer rises from deep within

For though love seeks the presence near 

It's your joy that's even more dear 

And it's freedom in  every meaning

As the river flows always to the sea 

It rains to quench the all receiving ground 

And the vapours rise in prayers to the sky 

May I see you rise to your dreams

Love that once bound now setting free 

Like a tree rooted in the ground 

To this earth I am bound

And I reminisce the love that transpired 

Though not always been obvious 

In my heart  etched in iron memorized 

Were you close to me my child

Like the sun to me would you provide

But even afar your  soothing happiness

 Like the moonlight would calm my mind 

And so gladly would I take much pride 

Fear not for my plight

For benevolent God fends me 

Despair not in adversity rather rise

And elevate yourself in your destiny

And in it lies my glory

Yearning of a soul

I know not - what shall I asketh of thee O lord

my prayers obscurely piercing the depths of my heart 

probing the meaning of my soul

with some knowing of the mien rarely known

the semblance I refrain from the evanescing zone

 

somewhere in the denial of true credence  

somewhere between my trust flows

through the waters of the divine providence

hitherto there too aporia glides

along with the tears and  fathomless benevolence

 

I ask again incessantly, perpetually through the inestimable sighs

I pray- how do I beseech thee

for  I know not what shall I asketh of thee O lord

the failure of dreams and the dreams of failure

that isn't all that ravages the human soul

 

for what  and what more must I utter sighs

towards the benevolent azure skies

unrelenting  the heart so longs the heart so cries

yet unkown to self are my wants

for I know not what I shall asketh of  thee O lord

 

 

 

 

A silent little prayer

 Teach me O lord how to pray

What all and whatnot to pray

For thou provideth everything

And if I asketh of thee O lord

Is it that I  choose to go astray

Beyond Lamentation

 Beyond lamentation 

Every little joy

Twinkles like a star 

Every other sorrow

Mine I consider

Beyond lamentation

In every  other eyes

I see love

And my heart 

Becomes a mirror

Beyond lamentation

I sense every other error

To be pardoned

For like me they are

Lagging in their learning

Beyond lamentation

I realised the agony

caused in me

Took beginning

Somewhere in me

Beyond lamentation

I revel in the bliss

That sorrow brings

And I perceive the presence

I AM in everything

 Here a void in my heart,

I open my eyes to the darkness

Albeit slowly I perceive 

my heart isn't really empty 

the darkness also

has secrets for me to see

 Fear is what made me pray

Till this day

O God

Take my fear away

For I trust in thy benevolence

To give without reserve

That I maybe in thy presence

Only to feel thy love

A NEW YEAR

they say the door has opened
we are stepping into a new life
leaving behind the shadows
of old and unwanton strife

nay may it be so to all
that despite the shadows
clinging and changing with
time shall no longer pull us down

for while the heart flies in
to new arenas and is caught up
with facing old pains once again
may we find new ways to fly again

the resolutions of the past
then again some new ones
some to be broken as always and
some to fulfil in time

nay there ain't any compulsions
for masters we are of our fate
we desire, then we doubt, then
we asses, then we give up once again

but while we last here for somewhile
there in the clouds of eternity
is being written and rewritten of fates 
that was that is and that could have been

yet we suffer for our dreams
in our dreams of love
till the fullfillment of time
or so till we embrace our dreams

so to say it would be better
to step forward with courage
into the new space of the so called
door of time 

LUMINOUS

The dove settled on the chosen
Then made was the revelation
Lord grant me the desire 
to pursue my destination 

Love galore in meeting of souls
The wine short now flowing in bowls
Lord the love of heavens 
let it manifest in the meeting of souls

On the mount near to heaven
there were tasks one to seven
The one given to me
is truly my mission

And when I fall on my knees
And thou shalt hear my cries
Be it that from the forest trees
contemplate the transfiguration till the seas

so that I will let my heart bleed
with love that's into mine poured
The sacrificial broken bread
shall remind me of calvary till I am dead
 

THE FINAL EMBRACE

In the enclosed dungeon
shuddering
I lay breathless
suffocating

endlessly here forever
waiting
not to yield 
wanting


hoping for the hopeless
grace
in my destined final 
embrace

I hear the
voices
on the other
shore

the sorrows I
caused
the tears someone
bore

now it's my
heart
to them reaches
out 

yet they know of
nothing
my heart is myrrh
burning

and oblivious to my
prayer
love weeps at my 
door

OF FRAMES AND MINDS

Let  me go on liveth
though not knoweth
thy frame of mind
by me untouched, unscathed 
And yet covered 
in my love
thy frame of mind
yet not knoweth , not cognized

For I shall say 
Great is the benefit
of Doubt , that in peace 
let me lay
Rather  than let me die
in despair
the heart troubleth
and facts knoweth

MOTHER

MY STRENGTH 

IS EBBING AWAY

A PART OF ME 

HAS PASSED AWAY 

I PLAY THE DIRGE

AND SOME CONCIERGE 

WHO CAN CONSOLE ?

MY SORROWED SOUL

HER GOD SENT LOVE

WAS ALL THAT FILLED MY HEART

AND WHATEVER TRIPPED FROM IT

WAS A REMNANT OF THAT

HOW HER LOVE POURED 

INTO MY HEART

GAVE ME STRENGTH

TO SHARE , TO SACRIFICE

OH ! SWEET MOTHER

IF IT WEREN'T FOR YOU 

I WOULDN'T HAVE KNOWN

CONCERN FOR THE OTHER
                                                                
IT REMAINS FURTHER
TO CHILDREN GATHER

TO POUR A MOTHER'S LOVE

INTO ANOTHER

REMAINS

Read me O reader
that I remain
like a wisp of fog
that once you saw
now no more remain
like a heartrending line
of a story
half forgotten
like haze memory
of a beautiful poem
So much so
at least
in a heart
ever settle
like a sigh
of a dream
that was to remain
A dream

NEARBY

Through the crowds 
I accompanied you
Yet you never knew
The dust  swarmed up 
and still I saw you
The dew drops in winter hue
The sun rays
in the morning blue
and I hovering around you


Through the whispers 
of the wind
My love shall flow
so shall the fading 
sun of evening shore
with the humming waves
and whistling trees
keep telling you
even more

The smile that betrays
the thousand tears
And the moments 
that come after
a thousand years
all have I known
from the depths 
of your heart 
a thousand times

There you are I see 
You may never know
Yet in some dreams
I'll tell you of  tales 
of another door
of which you may
one day  know
for I am your angel
from yesteryore

LOVE LOST

Oh! such pain
letting love slip
out of my palms
how could I've been
so vain, so vain.

Now I cry
over my loss
as I realise
over the love lost
in vain , in vain.

My heart burns
and the tears drain
but futile my despair
and it remains
my pain ,my pain

I drift through
this world
with many like me
hiding the tears
in the rain , in the rain